According to my friends, it is something to do with my astrological sign. I am not too sure. It might be a cultural gap. Something to do with my very French education. So, here it is: I am very blunt and I like to call a spade a spade ( by the way the French translation would be to call a cat a cat). This means that, from time to time, I upset someone. And usually I end up regretting it. What is wrong with me?
To make matters even worse, another problem is that I tend to believe what I am told. I am probably the only one. Everybody else seems to know where to stand and what to believe. Except me. I often feel like I am the only one who doesn’t know the rule of the game. Again, what did I miss?
No later than yesterday, I met an acquaintance who jokingly told me that she could speak French. Me being me, I believed her (why wouldn’t I?) and started speaking French. She didn’t understand a single word I was saying and blushed. She managed to say “Comment allez-vous?” (how are you?) with such a thick British accent that I had to make her repeat the question at least three times. I panicked. I was about to say “oh, you are a bit rusted, aren’t you?” but managed to refrain myself (Phew!). I ended up complimenting her about her French skills, but my heart wasn’t really in it. She must have picked up on it. Silly old me.
Why do I believe that people are interested in talking to me at the end of a school’s day when all they want is a donation for their charity? And why did I say to the teacher that kids should know all their timetables by 7 years when the school only does the two timetable?
I should know better. I really find it hard to embellish the reality the way some of my friends manage to do. A special medal goes to the absent Mum who left her kids to be raised by the nanny and explained to me that her son was very bright but not very good at passing tests, why is why he failed all his exams. Such an art is something that I can’t master…Over time, I have learned to keep my mouth shut. That’s as far as I can go. And I act: I have taught all the timetables to my little one. But that’s not how you are supposed to behave over here. I am afraid I will never get it.
Don’t get me wrong: I am an optimist. I like to see the silver lining of a difficult situation. But I will still call it a difficult situation. It is just who I am. And I am too old to change anyway.
Muriel – A French Yummy Mummy In London